The sad thing about finishing an amazing game is that you’ll never again be able to experience the feeling of playing it for the first time
have you ever really thought about crying though
you just get really emotional and then salty water starts coming out of your eyes and your nose starts running and there’s liquid coming from everywhere and all the while you can’t even fucking breathe right you’re just sitting there making these little gasping sounds and dying animal noises and you just can’t. fucking. stop.
it’s like ok body thanks for the input but I dont get how this is addressing the issue at hand???
I just started thinking about my current situation, which for me is generally a bad idea hence why I tend to avoid doing it.
okay so dig this.
I’m 22 years old.
I do not own a car nor can I drive a car.
not because I don’t want to or I have some physical disability. no, my parents for some reason just don’t fucking want me to. since I was almost 16 they’ve always had so many excuses and it always comes down to “it’ll happen when the time is right blahblahblah your future is safe don’t worry.”
bullshit. this has affected my entire life and made it impossible for me to do anything for myself.
because of this stupid fucking charade they’re pulling with me, I have never been able to get a job because I can’t rely on other people to get me to work every single day. I have no bank account because I don’t have an income… which means no money to save for my future or to use on anything at all.
and who the hell is gonna wanna hire a 20-something who has never had any job experience at all and just some crap liberal arts degree??
as far as money for right now, my income is that my parents hand me 35 bucks a week and tell me to go crazy. 35 bucks a week. it’s difficult to literally not to spend that all in one place.
my parents have literally fucked over my future and they think that’s just okay. I have no independence, no way to stand up for myself… every time I bring it up, it’s a huge fight and I always end up crying and being yelled at.
oh and college? I rely on my boyfriend to get me to school every day. We usually just schedule classes at all the same times so this works out. but this semester he was unable to get any classes he needs and therefore was forced to take a leave of absence.
so guess who gets to sit at home on her ass until late January being a useless sack of shit because she has no way to school.
all because my parents have this idea in their heads that what they’re doing with my life is perfectly okay.
fuck it I just wanna die. I have no future. this is stupid. I’m done.
and here’s me trying really hard to be sexy.
god I need to find something to do.
I’d like to personally extend a warm fuck you to the people who post pictures of women in cheongsam and Chinese headdresses and tag it with “geisha” “japanese” or “kimono”.
seriously. you have the internet. you’re using it right now. there’s no excuse for that shit. I even had to use it to remember that it’s actually called “cheongsam”. If I can do it, you can too.